We used to make wishes and laughed together. We used to talk so much via texting; random chatter as well as deep conversations. We used to share many late night chats and became each other’s listening ear. We used to be able to talk about anything in the world until we even wonder if we would ever run out of things to talk about.
You told me I was your good friend. You told me you were comfortable with me and even let me into your world, little by little.
But everything has changed overnight. I sensed that you drifted away. You said you don’t have anything to share and that you are busy. Your tone sounds so cordial, as if we are just ordinary friends.
Was it because of something I said? I wonder if I could just have one night to make it right again.
I know you won’t be here but my heart is waiting. I tried to keep myself busy but everything reminds me of you. My calendar is filled with memories of you; our first date, our random late night drives, our Christmas meal and more. My heart is heavy as I scroll through my picture gallery in my phone, recalling the memories we shared. Seeing your bright smile makes me smile too. I regretted not taking more photos but it is too late now. There are no words to describe how much I miss you.
Someday, the memories would no longer cause pain in my heart. Everything would be normal again. I would be able to smile and move on with life.
But now, all I can do is to wish upon 11.11 and I hope I would be able to get over you soon.
I checked in at my favourite standing sushi bar in Shimbashi and noticed you liked the post. A few minutes later, my phone beeped.
Hey, are you in Tokyo right now?
My colleague was asking me why I was smiling like a fool when I was reading your message. I merely brushed him off as I typed a quick reply to you.
Yes, I’m here on a business trip.
I was hoping you were in Tokyo too.
Taeyeon was not in a good mood now. In fact, she felt extremely annoyed over the smallest thing. The chirping of the birds, the rustling of leaves in the cool breeze, the sounds of sneakers crushing the gravel path separating the business and arts blocks and many others. On a normal day, she wouldn’t even notice their existence but not today. She was having her period and the cramps caused her to be highly irritable.
Taeyeon sighed and put her book down. She couldn’t focus and there was no point in staring at the same paragraph over and over again. Looking across the table, she watched as Jessica solved math problems like she was born to do it. The blonde was wrinkling her nose and frowning almost simultaneously, her hair was a little ruffled but nonetheless she still looked beautiful.
The rustling of leaves was accompanied by the scratching of a pen against paper. Instead of focusing on reading her notes, Taeyeon’s attention was on the person next to her.
Taeyeon and Jessica were sitting beneath a huge tree in the cool weather. They were doing revisions before the big test next week. Deciding that it was too stifling to study at the library, the pair opted to go outdoors.
Taeyeon’s eyes landed on the curve of Jessica’s nose. She observed how Jessica’s long lashes batted, how her brows were knitted as the blonde focused intently on solving the equations in the workbook, how she could bit her lips whenever she faced a difficult question and how flawless her porcelain skin was.
I need you boo, I gotta see you boo
And the hearts all over the world tonight,
Said the hearts all over the world tonight
Heavy footsteps trudged through the corridor. Taeyeon pushed the door to her office and dumped the stack of files on her desk before collapsing onto her chair. She let out a huge weary sigh before spinning the chair around to face the large window beside her desk.
A deflated looking person looked back at Taeyeon in the reflection of the window. The long afternoon meeting stretched into the night and the sky outside was dark apart from the lights in the opposite office block. The petite woman pulled herself up, placed her hands behind her head and stretched her legs in front of her. She closed her eyes for a moment, intending to take a short breather before she continued her work.
The silver hatchback came to a stop at a block of apartments. Jessica watched Taeyeon unbuckle her seatbelt quietly. Her heart was beating rapidly. It wasn’t the first time she sent Taeyeon home after eating dinner together. It wasn’t the first time she was thinking of how to broach a particular topic. Words floated around in her mind but she just couldn’t arrange them in a logical manner and vocalise them.
Jessica had been hanging out with Taeyeon often in the recent weeks and realised her interest in the older girl was increasing each time they met. They were working in different departments and had met through a project they were currently working on.
They had been driving for almost two hours. No one uttered a single word during that time.
“Let’s stop here for a while,” Taeyeon broke the silence. She eased the car off the road onto the gravel and parked. Pressing a button, she opened the soft top, gave herself a long stretch with her arms over her head before tilting her head back onto the headrest.
Jessica let out a short sigh before leaning her chin on her arm, which was propped on the door. Her heart was heavy. She had a lot of things to say to Taeyeon but no words could come out of her mouth.